i killed my mother
it wasn't my fault
For this Girl of 25, life with Herself is continually turbulent. This morning is particularly overwhelming; She is assaulted by self-doubt, unemployment, too much social media, and her mother. Still, She must brave the mundanity and frivolousness of urban girlhood, all the while looking for someone to blame. This is the story of an ordinary day in Her life.
I Killed my Mother / It Wasn’t my Fault is my effort to depict life on a bad day. In 2019, a bad day to me meant my mother being annoyed with me for some mysterious reason that had to do with my daily habits, unemployment, not having the willpower to get off my phone, and feeling a heightened sense of loneliness. The idea began and grew from investigating what is The War with the Self, wanting to write longform stream-of-consciousness, and questioning class privilege in young, urban women like me. The idea then grew at Indian Ensemble’s First Draft: Ideas Lab, where Chanakya Vyas, Karen D’mello, Abhimanyu Acharya, and a most wonderful cohort of fellow writers, witnessed its first iterations.
What followed was a lot of nudging and nagging from friends and family who believed in me when I wasn’t able to, some desperate attempts at changing careers, waves of a pandemic, and finally a push of self-assertion in the form of a grant from my alma mater, the Drama Schools Foundation Mumbai. What you see today is no longer just mine.
I Killed my Mother / It Wasn’t my Fault belongs to everyone on stage and off who has contributed to its telling, it belongs to frivolous women, it belongs to this new generation of youth, and it belongs to you who are watching it today.
Mithil Raj Goswami
I Killed my Mother / It Wasn’t my Fault is an original play from Mumbai made possible because of our donors:
Alpana Shah, Anuja Ghosalkar, Aryan Tandon, Asha Khadaria, Fareen Jalal, Jyoti Mehta, Nirmal Shah, Sameer Shah, Sanghamitra Sengupta, Shiva Pathak, Smita Premchander, Virisila Buadromo, and Yuki Ellias.
The show is supported by Bhasha Centre and Paytm Insider
through the Manch initiative.
Special thanks to Kala and JJ Parekh, Kanchan and Prakash Thakur, Ganesh Jambhale, Rupali Bait, Sunil Mishra and Chrisann Pereira for facilitating the creation of this show.